Rosewood Alumni Recovery Coach Reflects On Her Journey To Self-Acceptance

Self Acceptance?  Maybe some of you also wonder what that is.  Well, four years ago I embarked on a journey.  My journey to Self Acceptance.  I am a mom and a wife but I didn’t have an identity.  I was lost.  I was very depressed.  “Who am I?”  I would ask as I looked in the mirror and did not recognize the woman looking back at me.  I remember the day that I made a decision that would change my life forever.  Instead of being my enemy and critic, I decided to become my friend.  It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do.  I learned a lot about myself while on this journey.  I spent time alone with myself and got to know who I really am.  I learned what my strengths and weaknesses are.  I looked at my shortcomings and flaws and began to embrace them.  I’m not saying that I love my flaws, what I’m saying is that I have learned to accept them.  They make me unique.  I am not made to be like everyone else.  I began to stop comparing myself to others.  I accepted the fact that I will never look like anyone else and that is okay.  I live in my body and I needed to learn to love myself and the body that I have.  I am grateful and blessed for what my body does for me. On this journey I have also learned what Self Forgiveness is and I apply it to every area of my life.  I can fail at many things but I cannot fail at being “Me.”  Freedom comes with Self Acceptance.  While on this journey, I had the opportunity to meet myself for the first time in many years.  I love Shannon and the woman she is today.  I take care of her and I protect her. I honor and respect her.  I speak beautiful words to her – not mean anymore.  My past… it doesn’t define me.  I’ve accepted it and have learned from it.  My story is what has made me into the strong remarkable woman I am today.  I think I’m pretty awesome.  I live for me today.  I make the time to self care.  I am a great wife, mother and friend.  What’s different is that today, I come first.  I owe that to myself.  I am deserving. You see, I have learned many things on my journey but the greatest thing that I learned is that I am not beautiful like you…I am beautiful like me.

Shannon Hershkowitz
Alumni Recovery Coach
Rosewood Centers For Eating Disorders